To the people I love...

I would like to thank you for being there for me whenever I needed you. And for still being here. You have seen me go through a lot of changes, good and bad, and it is finally clear to me that the outcome is good.

I can feel my heart beat. I can scream my lungs out. I can read both on and in between the lines. I can reflect on my life and still feel good. Acknowledge the fact that I am no longer holding on to it, but living it. My eyes may have taken some damage along the way, but the fact that I now wear glasses, does not mean that I am not seeing things clearly. I am, more than ever actually.

I hold a special place in my heart to the people that were kind enough to let me go, wheter or not it happened with their intention of doing so. I have loved you once, and learned a lot from you. There is no "wrong time". There is just time. So if you, like me, got hurt on some oocasions, be grateful that you did. I am not saying we should embrace only sad things, we should embrace everything. Might be a well used cliché, but it is true. Everything happens for a reason.

Take me for instance. I used to tread water. Now I swim for fun. But I know that I owe that to my life. All the things that has happened, good and bad. And from where I stand today, I cannot really say that I have made many mistakes. I have made choices.

So, to all the boys that broke my heart and nearly crushed my will to live, for various amounts of time. I owe a little of my life today to you. I want to thank you for loving me, and for letting me go at just the right time. Today I love my self more than I ever loved one of you, and for that, I needed you. You made me stronger, wiser, and helped me learn how to swim.

And to the boys that I myself broke the hearts of, I am sorry. But I cannot say that I regret. Because I ended up here, today. And I am in a thankful place, with a strong heart and a body that cooperates with my mind. I listen to my own voice, follow my own heart, and I can finally breathe again.

I am now being honest to my self. In order to do that, I have to be honest to my heart. I have dug layers of crap on the way down to my heart. It has been covered by lies, misconception and sorrow for a long time. Now, it unravels to me in all it's beauty. Every day I wake up and become a little lighter. Each night I go to sleep a bit easier.

I never knew it would be so difficult to live this life. But since it has been just that, I have come to appreciate it more. I am so happy that I get to live and tell, and to skyrocket my soul even higher. To some, I am sure it may appear like I have my head in the clouds, but acually I am more grounded than ever. I know what is important to ME. That is what i call key knowledge in this life I live. Until you learn that, nothing else can really matter. Or it may matter too much.

Word of advice: Stick with yourself, be your own best friend, and act in ways you can stand for. You cannot change life with someone, nor your body, so deal with it the best possible way. Give yourself a hug and excel. I know I don't want to have regrets when my time comes, so I will try to live it every day. Do you want to lose time, or spend time?